Hope...

Just try to write down again on my blog, maybe after almost one year i didnt write anything on it. Sometimes i just take a look at it, but my brain is became stuck because i dont have an idea o write something on it. Or maybe because its too much in my mind so i dont know which one i must start to write. So now i try to write down again that i have in my mind, so the symphony of the words in my life can be still keep as a symphony of my life.

After almost one year i've been struggle with so many things in my life, i just realize there's is one thing that He really taught me. And its all about HOPE.

There's a lot of things that i've been through since i was in Singapore. Feels like that everything had been taken from me. Include all the comfortness in my life, all the plan and all the settlement that i've already made for the future in my ife. Of course, as a human, there were a time when i always been complained to Him. Not blaming Him, but its only complain and i always throw the same questions day by day, "Why me?", "What should i do?", even sometimes, nowadays, i still ask that last question. I think, the question is changing during the time and the process as well.

But in that time, what i dont realize, that i've been stucked in the problem that i have, even though i'm still in the process to settle it down and finalize it, but one thing i realize...that i forgot to put my hope in Him.

It's like i'm walking around and round try to find the way out by myself without realize that my life is already in His hands. The only thing that i forgot is to keep hoping in Him. to asking Him day by day, like child asking his father when he want something to buy. Even sometimes, we feel that He never listen to what we said, but he did listen, only He just wait the right time to realize it. Maybe for some people, its sounds very common, but trust me, you will forget about it when all the probems in your life starts to falls down on you like a thousand brick wall tearing down on you.

I also realize, that keep yourself in a positive way is the way to maintain the HOPE to still alive in your heart and in your mind. Because I also realize that HOPE will keep you alive and survive in the midst of the storm in your life. So, in case you have a big big problems, dont keep it in mind as a negative things, like it dont have a way out, like it never ends from your life.

So just keep your hope in Him, keep positive. I really thank Him that He sent His angel to be by my side. Through her, He keep telling how to be patience and stronger in my life now. Trust me, He always send His best guardian angel to keep you stronger and to keep you walking in yourlife.


"Don't lose hope. When the sun goes down, the stars come"
~ dedicated to my angel, Jessica Tj. ~