Always...

Today, i went to the Ascension of our Lord sunset mass at St. Peter and Paul. It's been a long time for me since my time seems getting tighter especially since a few months ago.

I realize that i also must keep to maintaining a lot of relation in my life. Because i realize, life is about to maintaining relations. Not only relation between you and your loved ones, but also our relation with God. Actually that the first thing that we must take care of, but like me...i know that so many times i ignore it about the time that i should take as a quality time between me and Him. I realized it when i went to the adoration room before mass began. Feels like i'm home again. My heart, my mind, feels like being rest in somewhere that far from this hectic life.

After i reached home, like usually, i just go online, open my laptop, and starts to play music in my iTunes. And suddenly i remember one song that i found this morning in Youtube. Song from one of my favorite Christian band, Building 429. I don't know why, but i think this is the second time that He touch me again with their song. The title of the song is the same like this blog title, "Always"

The lyrics is reminding me again about His promise, about His presence in my life. Which is, as similar like Jesus said before His ascension day that He won't leave us alone, even He came back to His father, He won't leave us alone, because He is Emmanuel...

Thank you, Lord for keeping me always in Your hands...

Here's the lyrics...

Always ~ Building 429

I was standing in the pouring rain one dark, November night;
fighting off the bitter cold when she caught my eye.
Her face was taught and her eyes were filled and to my surprise
she pulled out a photograph and my heart just stopped inside
she said, "He would of been three today. I miss his smile. I miss his face."
What was I supposed to say?

But I believe always, always our savior never fails.
Even when all hope is gone,
God knows our pain
and his promise remains. He will be with you always.

he was living in a broken world dreaming of a home
his heart was barely keeping pace when I found him all alone
remembering the way he felt when his daddy said goodbye
fighting just to keep the tears and the anger locked inside

he's barely holding on to faith
but deliverance is on its way

because I believe always, always
our savior never fails.
Even when all hope is gone,
God knows our pain
and his promise remains. He will be with you always.

Friend I don't know where you are
and I don't know where you've been.
Maybe you're fighting for your life
just about to throw the towel in,
but if you 're crying out for mercy
if there's no hope left at all
if you've given everything you've got and you're still about to fall
well hold on,
hold on ,
hold on

Because I believe always, always
our savior never fails.
Even when all faith is gone,
God knows our pain
and his promise remains always. always.
He will be with you always.
He will be with you always.
He will be with you.

Hope...

Just try to write down again on my blog, maybe after almost one year i didnt write anything on it. Sometimes i just take a look at it, but my brain is became stuck because i dont have an idea o write something on it. Or maybe because its too much in my mind so i dont know which one i must start to write. So now i try to write down again that i have in my mind, so the symphony of the words in my life can be still keep as a symphony of my life.

After almost one year i've been struggle with so many things in my life, i just realize there's is one thing that He really taught me. And its all about HOPE.

There's a lot of things that i've been through since i was in Singapore. Feels like that everything had been taken from me. Include all the comfortness in my life, all the plan and all the settlement that i've already made for the future in my ife. Of course, as a human, there were a time when i always been complained to Him. Not blaming Him, but its only complain and i always throw the same questions day by day, "Why me?", "What should i do?", even sometimes, nowadays, i still ask that last question. I think, the question is changing during the time and the process as well.

But in that time, what i dont realize, that i've been stucked in the problem that i have, even though i'm still in the process to settle it down and finalize it, but one thing i realize...that i forgot to put my hope in Him.

It's like i'm walking around and round try to find the way out by myself without realize that my life is already in His hands. The only thing that i forgot is to keep hoping in Him. to asking Him day by day, like child asking his father when he want something to buy. Even sometimes, we feel that He never listen to what we said, but he did listen, only He just wait the right time to realize it. Maybe for some people, its sounds very common, but trust me, you will forget about it when all the probems in your life starts to falls down on you like a thousand brick wall tearing down on you.

I also realize, that keep yourself in a positive way is the way to maintain the HOPE to still alive in your heart and in your mind. Because I also realize that HOPE will keep you alive and survive in the midst of the storm in your life. So, in case you have a big big problems, dont keep it in mind as a negative things, like it dont have a way out, like it never ends from your life.

So just keep your hope in Him, keep positive. I really thank Him that He sent His angel to be by my side. Through her, He keep telling how to be patience and stronger in my life now. Trust me, He always send His best guardian angel to keep you stronger and to keep you walking in yourlife.


"Don't lose hope. When the sun goes down, the stars come"
~ dedicated to my angel, Jessica Tj. ~